So many times I get asked this question and my answer is always the same... death was not an option.
Maybe it was the Holy Spirit talking to me on the many occasions when I was in the heat of the battle with my ex husband, but either way I never once believed "He's going to kill me". I don't really know how to explain it but I always knew that there would be an end to the episode. Quite honestly I thought he would kill himself before he would kill me.
Contrastingly, my biggest fear when I was not engaged in war with him was a murder suicide. Maybe I fell victim to the all too common "It won't happen to me" epidemic, but looking back I'm not sure if that was really it either.
Even now I still can't briefly answer this question so let me just paint the picture...
"Come with me now" Claudine!
